I will admit that I feel that at this point it almost seems like I’ve wasted the last 4 years. It seems like as we go on, the connections I have made are vanishing one by one; that each shred of hope seems to be fading a little bit more each day. That being said, I need to use this time to refocus my mission and figure out what I really need to do to rebuild what has been burnt down. I’ll keep the list of everyone I looked up to in mind as I go on and find my way. I’ll remember everyone that has helped me and everyone who has hurt me. I’ll remember them and I’ll remember who I am and who I want to be. People may want to erase me, but someday I’ll haunt them. People will know who I am. One way or another, I’ll leave my mark.
Or maybe, I’ll just fade away. That perhaps would be easier, better. I’m sure there’s a good size list of people that would prefer if I just did that. I’m not a memorable person. That’s okay though. It’s not so bad being no one. It used to bother me, but I’ve had plenty of time to get used to it. I used to have crazy dreams, but maybe everyone has been right the whole time. Maybe I should have just realized that sooner. Maybe, just maybe dreams are just meant to be that.
Who knows what the future holds. Only time will tell. I hope you’re all enjoying your weekend.