There’s no real reason to write this other than to simply write I suppose. There’s not a lot to update as I’m doing nothing aside from helping mom with some things around the house that she cannot do or shouldn’t do.
I’m still waiting for that moment where everything comes together, but as time goes on, I’m starting to really think it isn’t going to. I suppose I did finish the first rough draft of my first novel during November (NaNoWriMo) so that’s something. I’ll probably never touch it again. I didn’t really write it for consumption. There’s nothing to learn or take from it so it doesn’t really have a purpose not that I couldn’t add some of that in editing, but I don’t know that I care. And to be perfectly honest, it hits a bit too close to home in some ways that I’m not sure I’d want to share it for those reasons. There is one other story I planned to write so maybe that will be the one to share, if I ever write it. I make no promises. I can’t make promises on anything anymore really. I cannot be trusted to not break them.
I’ve been considering getting off social media for a little while. Aside from like the handful of people I interact with or actually pay attention to I have no real need for it or desire to use it. It’s not like I use it for any true purpose or post anything worthwhile anyway. Nothing is really interesting me at the moment. I’ve had some mental setbacks and I need to deal with them once and for all, if possible. And besides, I am not much of a people person, on the internet or in real life (never have been). You would think that by 25 (nearly 26) I would have some idea of who I am or at least who I want to be, but I still have no clue. I thought I knew what I wanted or where I wanted to be, but now I don’t. I need to figure it out and I don’t know how long it will take.
On another note, some of you may have noticed I’ve posted quite a few French songs lately and I want to be clear that it’s not a direct correlation to the attack on Paris. I’ve always loved the language. I don’t use it myself, but I did study some in high school and a semester in college so there’s some knowledge of it. Anyway, my point is I’ve decided to expand my boundaries and music seems like a good place to start and I don’t intend to stick with just French. I’d love to expand to several languages and other cultures and genres as well. I figure that maybe, just maybe it’s time I really started to learn about the world. Especially the way it looks right now it can’t hurt to learn more and music is pretty central so I think it’s a nice place to start, I don’t know. Food might be another place to explore as well.
I know that none of this really matters and likely only one person will probably ever read it so I don’t know why I write here either, but oh well I guess. If more than my normal one person reads this, I apologize for assuming it’s only the one, but without leaving a comment I never truly know if my stuff is being read, not that what I have to say is amazing or important, but anyway I suppose it doesn’t matter, just wanted to throw out an apology just in case. And I’m not looking for people to comment, but just a note that I don’t know if people are reading it, that’s all. I think I’ve lost my point by now.