I feel like it has been too long since I last wrote a post. I guess there just has not been too much of a reason to and honestly, I do not think I can promise much in this post. So after that lovely intro let us get to it…
I am afraid there is truly not too much to update. I have tried to write something out a couple times now, but I cannot put any of it up. It is far too depressing. I am tired of writing depressing posts. Perhaps I ought to clear up the last post, which was a Disney post. If you have not read it, it was basically a summary of my last day of work, which sounded really a whole lot more awful than it was. It was only awful to me because I made it out to be for reasons I will probably keep to myself. It was a difficult day of saying goodbyes and final moments, but my adventures down there have changed me in ways I cannot even begin to truly describe. There truly is a before Disney and after Disney way of thinking. I did write at the end of the post that perhaps in time the way I saw the end would change and perhaps that time has come. And though one other thing I said about the anger saving me that day, but it is the hurt that destroyed me is still in part true, it is not all bad. There is something about the hurt that has healed me in ways that do not make sense. I needed that pain to get to where I am. While it is not exactly where I want to be it has helped me to deal with other hurting. I know most of this is mostly vague, but it is likely better that way. I know things are not perfect, but I certainly hope that in time, things will truly get better. I know some will say of course things will get better, but you have to understand that there has been so much go wrong that it is hard to hope for anything so I am doing the best I can. And as much I do not deserve it, I hope you all can be patient with me while I try to re-find that true hope.