I do not understand why things that I think would be best for me would hurt or be bad for so many people in my life. I do not like disappointing people, I do not like hurting them, and I certainly never want to lose them. So at this point I am still unsure of where to go or what to do that would benefit everyone and not just myself, but I don't know how long those solutions will last without one or both sides losing. I feel so torn between what I want to do, what I can do, and what I should do. Some people tell me I have potential in this or that, but even if I wanted to do them I'm not sure how to get there or if it's actual even possible for me. So in my current situation, I may kind of take this week off and ponder. I do apologize ahead of time for any inconveniences this may cause. However should you need me, you know how to reach me, or at least you should by now....
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