Well I have been down here for almost 2 months now which means I am down to about 3 months left and I feel like I have not actually done anything.
I have only gone to the beach once and only to the parks like every other week. It’s not that I do not want to go because I do; I just don’t have enough time or am too lazy to make myself go. All the rain lately has not really helped in convincing me to go either. I mostly just stay in my room and ‘work’ on homework or I am at work, which is basically all this has really become which is kind of sad. It’s just not fun to go to the parks without family, honestly. I mean it is fine, but it’s just not the same and I cannot say I really have anyone that I especially want to go with. I’ve gone with the roommates a couple times, which was fine, but I don’t exactly have a bunch of friends to go with. I don’t really do anything with my coworkers besides work either. See how crappy this sounds. It’s not that I’m not having a good time; it’s just not exactly what I had hoped this experience would be. I knew work would be tough after so much time of doing nothing but school stuff and now that I have both, it’s just not that much fun. I don’t know how mom made it through with school, work, and taking care of us. Speaking of mom, she’s not doing all that well with her knee and ankle and I just wish I knew how to help, but I don’t know what I can do from here.
They said we’d be different people when we finished the program than when we started (or something like that) and it is true and yet I am the same. I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s not really easy to explain. I guess I still feel like I don’t fit. I had hoped that I could find a place here, but if anything it’s shown me that I don’t. And I am not talking specifically about Disney itself. I still love Disney and it’s a lovely place to work, most of the time. Every job has its moments where you just want to leave and never return, but for the majority it’s been fine, for a job.
I guess this is really about it for an update. I know it’s not much, but I cannot think anymore, which is bad because I need to go do my homework. Oh well. Until next time…
They said we’d be different people when we finished the program than when we started (or something like that) and it is true and yet I am the same. I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s not really easy to explain. I guess I still feel like I don’t fit. I had hoped that I could find a place here, but if anything it’s shown me that I don’t. And I am not talking specifically about Disney itself. I still love Disney and it’s a lovely place to work, most of the time. Every job has its moments where you just want to leave and never return, but for the majority it’s been fine, for a job.
I guess this is really about it for an update. I know it’s not much, but I cannot think anymore, which is bad because I need to go do my homework. Oh well. Until next time…