So we had a little networking meeting thing today and of course it was my day off, so yay for going in when I have a ton of other things to get accomplished. It’s not like it was totally worth it anyway, but it is fine. It was good experience I guess. I just wish there was someone there from the area I want to get into, but it was pretty much just a resort networking thing, which is fine, just not what I am looking for, I think. I don’t know. I even made up really lame business cards. I only gave out two. One to a fellow cast member and one to one of my leaders/managers. Still not sure why I gave him one, it’s not like my portfolio is really that impressive anyway. Stupid move on my part, but that’s what I live for. However this has confirmed my suspicions of being just another person going through the program, which I knew, but it’s still weird to think about sometimes. Somewhere I hope to be more than that, I think, maybe not. It might actually be easier this way, less noticeable. I just have to stay under the radar and make it through and go home. Not sure about the PIs anymore anyway. I’m not that good as it is. And my resume is crap according the lecture thing today, which I also knew already. I’m not sure why I’m bothering or why I’m writing this. Maybe I did look at today wrong, perhaps it was to show me I am as far as I am going to get. Ah well.
Aside from all of this lovely career and future life stuff, things are going alright. I am still missing my family, of course. Though I didn’t really see most of my siblings before anyway, but it’s still weird being so far from them. And naturally, I still miss racing, but hoping to get to see part of the race this weekend…crossing my fingers!
Well, not a lot else to really say. I think I used to write more, but I am too tired to come up with anything. Maybe eventually I’ll finish a poem or two. Just haven’t been super inspired, which is weird right? You’d think I would have all kinds of things to write about, but I don’t. It is kind of disappointing, but we’ll see. I may have to write one just because even though it’ll probably stink. It’s been too long since I’ve written.
Oh I should also post something about it being 9/11 as well. And no it’s not that I forgot, because it’s not something I will ever forget, but just didn’t think about getting it into the blog post, but I should because well I should. So now I think it’s safe to end the post. Till next time…