thoughts run though my head.
I wonder what I could have said
that caused this great strain.
I feel like I’m going insane,
wondering why you had to go.
There was so much room to grow.
Only bittersweet memories remain.
when your face appears in a puddle.
I attempt to move on, but I struggle
as I know I’ll remember you anyway.
My heart will cry every day.
Nothing can bring me relief.
Sleep won’t even be my release
as you’ll be there without delay.
You hold out your hand to me
and pull me in close to you.
All the feelings felt so new
and it was the first time I felt free.
Your eyes are all that I can see
in a moment that is long overdue.
And then in a second I knew
that this was the key.
Suddenly, it came to an end
and I realize it was just a dream.
I feel like I want to scream.
For now I’ll just pretend.
My love to you I shall send
for I was sure I felt something…
The pain in my heart begins to sting
and your disappearance I resent.
The rain begins to turn into a storm
and I begin to hope I’ll drown.
The moment I thought I found
will have to keep me warm.
Another thought starts to form;
I remember that you cannot be mine.
A sharp pain hits my spine
and I start to feel forlorn.
I will always remember that chance
and how I let it pass on by.
Just the mere memory makes my cry.
What if I had just taken that advance?
I was only trying not to cause offense.
And by doing so I may never know
and I remain nothing but hollow,
caught in this reminiscent trance.
Please rain, wash away this sadness
and bring me something to smile for.
I need something with major force
that can fill me and be just as infectious.
This just leaves me with a weakness
that will only drive me crazy.
I need this dream to become hazy
for it always leaves me breathless.
I stamp your face out of the water
as I start running for somewhere.
Anywhere has to better than here.
Then in spite of myself I shudder.
For I must still be a supporter
and you can never know the truth,
because to you I’m just a silly goof
and just a piece of clutter.
Even if I must live in the dream world
just to have you for a little while,
at least it’s one place I can smile
and there you have such a strong hold.
With dreaming you cannot scold
so I’m free to live as I please,
there’s no one to appease,
and there’s no chance for you to bolt.
So rain place me into sleep
so that I never have to wake up.
This way no one can interrupt
and my thoughts of you I can keep.
It’s time to count those sheep
and fall into the darkest slumber.
Let my life and the world sunder
as I lay myself to sleep in the street.
My life I lost to a crazy dream.
Just a dream…
For you were that crazy dream.
Just a dream…