just tears me apart.
Happiness forever gone
with one quick blow.
for no one really cared.
Knowing now the truth
to which I was blind.
Striving to find the light
I fall farther within myself.
Remembering all that has been
and knowing what will never be.
I wander this world alone
never knowing where to go.
It seems the more I try
the less things work out.
Not sure there’s anywhere else
that I can try to escape to.
I begin to really wonder
why I haven’t just quit.
Stop trying to do what I want
and just be ‘normal’ and dull.
That is not the life I want
but I don’t have much choice.
People think they know me
but really they have no idea.
I am simply just me
and this me is not happy.
Forever stuck is this misery
and stuck in this place.
However, this appears to be my fate
and there isn’t much I can do.
So I may seem cold and distant
but really just sad and lonely.
So back into the darkness
where I cannot feel.
Perhaps someday I will feel
and be human once more.
Until then, do not think of me
for I truly am not living.
I am a piece of your imagination
where I am as you want me to be.