I remember things long forgotten.
All the emotions come flooding back
as if they were from only yesterday.
their stories hidden years ago.
And it’s as if no time had gone by;
that I am eternally stuck in one time.
Dreams play the memories on repeat
and add things I wish had happened.
For some reason I am stuck in the past
with no way to focus on the future.
There is no chance for an escape
no matter how elaborate one is made.
It’s a cruel trick of the brain
to lead me once again in reverse.
So much progress has happened
for me to succumb so easily.
But you were always my weakness
the only one I truly ever had.
My thoughts have become overrun
with a past so cold and dark.
Once again I know not where to go
but can only hope the end will soon come.
For no god can come of the shadows
that had once torn me from life.
So as easily as I could give in
I cannot for I would lose everything.
I must hold on to now
for it’s my only chance
of surviving this fate
for which I seem destined.