the next my heart ripped from my chest.
I feel nothing except for distressed
wondering why I thought you’d be mine.
and now I must give up my favorite game.
I knew you would never feel the same,
but my vision lately has been a little hazy.
I sit here trying to hold back the tears
and I don’t know how much I can take.
I keep hoping that it’s a mistake;
that it’s nothing more than my fears.
Oh I know that this should not hurt.
I feel like I’ve burst into a billion pieces.
I’ve given up completely on wishes
and I feel like I am less than dirt.
I always knew that this day would come
but I had a dream that it never would.
I will always wonder if I hadn’t just stood;
perhaps if I could have been more fun...
The last few months you were on my mind
and I could not seem to get you out of it.
I know lately I have been on the fritz;
I’ve done well keeping my thoughts confined.
But now you shall know the truth
just of how much you meant to me.
Oh why didn’t I just let you see?
My actions, there is no excuse.
That smile shall haunt my memory forever;
it will never allow me to just be alone.
My soul wasn’t something to take on a loan
if we truly never could have been together.